January 18,2023

Weight 248.1

Mood : Chill

Thoughts

Hollywood giveth and Hollywood taketh away! As of late, a slew of projects have been canned due to tax write-offs from studios. A few projects I have worked on are part of that wipe to some; it sounds like a terrible situation. But I see this as a glass half full. I dig the work more than I dig the end result; I am sure others will agree that half the fun is trying to figure out how we make the damn thing. Sure, work gets lost and won’t see the light of day, and portfolios will be forever password protected. Honestly, who gives a fuck! I say we keep making dope shit.

Life Updates

I am on a few projects, and I couldn’t be happier. Will they see the light of day? Who knows, but if they do, I hope they elicit a reaction, good or bad, because, in the end, it’s what art is all about. Hate watching it, criticize it, boycott it, and fandom the fuck out of it either way; creatives win. I don’t know where I am going with this other than I’m having a blast.

Shaved my head, my hair was getting really long as much as I should be grateful for still having a head full of hair I can’t stand it. But the beard is still alive and thriving.

Got a second phone# just for the family last week. I keep getting calls and texts from people, and I don’t want to go back to having a social life any time soon. I got a second number to avoid being sucked into a social circle. Shit is going to smooth right now.

I’m passively on social media, which is ok. I guess I just post and ghost just to keep an active art page.

Haven’t heard, read, or watched the news in 48 days. By now, life is a daily trip to the mind. I’m out and about, and I don’t know the happenings of anything. It’s kind of a hyper focussed reality. It’s also rewarding in a chemically balanced sort of way. I used to be distracted and always felt exhausted because it was so much effort to pay attention to people and, more importantly, engage with people. Although I am an extrovert, it was a fucking drain to put a filter on my opinions and thoughts. Anywho it’s pretty cool, and I’m carefree; ignorance is genuinely bliss, lol. Side note I try to offset the shutting off of the world by learning some interesting shit.

Breakthroughs

Just finished the following books

The aesthetic mind: Philosophy and psychology

Designing the Mind : Principles of psychitecture.

The creative Habit: Learn it and use it for Life

Building a second brain

How to take smart notes.

As a result, I ended up ordering more fucking books and also putting together some Notion formulas that are making me more efficient at work and just overall in life. Once I get through the beta versions, I will post them.

I’m slowly getting the hang of c++, and I’m starting to apply it to some shit at work, which has made working with unreal easier.

Been using 3d more, which, up until a few months ago, I only used to cheat certain things, but now I can sculpt and model my ass off; shout out to Udemy and Gnomon!

That is all for now.